Answer:

God had forgiven me many times already. One of my personal experience is when I tried hurting myself, I knew how God hated wasting the gifts He gave us especially our life. He stopped me and talked to me in my dreams that He loves me and he'll never forget about me. That's when I felt his merciful love. Yes, we encounter things that no one wants to feel but through these challenges the God gives us He knows that we can face it and that we can do it. So always believe in yourself. God loves us.