Guys!! what does this mean

My dream was nakakakilig at nakakajelous

My dream was about being im lesbian, even tho im straight, my two cousins is there..

This is because why im inlove to my cousins cuz they were pretty, and after then i have a dream!! my friend/cousin one was lesbian in my dream, but shes not lesbian in real life!! Omygoshh! i was cool lesbian, and im serious lesbian in my dream, i went to my cousin 2 and i- i- niyakap ko sya, at hinug ko sya, kinikilig siya at hindi ko sya tinitignan, tapos yung cousin 1, parang nagseselos saakin.. tapos nung nag hand kami... basta guys nakakakilig talaga, gusto yung dream nayon puta :(

basta hindi pa yan ending, hindi ko pwede sabihin name nila (secret)​